Finally i got awake =)

You know what, i have a lot of cares from my friends and family.
when ever i felt upset for transportation and results things, my daddy will solve my problems .

Just now, with a brunch of old classmates and best friends celebrate kok ho birthday although not actual date.

I got a lot advices from them , they support me with their actions,
They sing , they make me really laugh the first time in this week.

someone just told me , "doesn't matter he is not around you ","You still have me "
Form a silly guy chee hoe, although i felt that just a simply sentences from them .
they gave me the powers to cheer up =D

i admit,i really sad and felt like drop in a deep deep hole .

But , now i found there are a lot of hand pulling me up. which is them , my bestie and my dearly parents.

Some friends that care your feelings all the times and no matter how , supporting me . Yeah ! i love them =)

life is up and down , you wont be sad and unlucky for all the time, You will be happy and lucky at once .

这个blog 是我的，我有权写我自己的感受， 请你不要再羞辱我的人格， 你真的很卑鄙
整整一晚没办法闭上眼睛睡。
晚餐的时候真的很感激一个能陪我好好吃一餐饭，整天只吃了那么一餐。
我不想在家给自己爸妈看到我那个样。

在他车上哭了真的很多轮啊。

回到家，和vane说了真的真的很多。
我真的需要时间和空间，来恢复

整晚没睡，没精神所以不去学校啦。
我怕看到你， 如果有个地方真的可以远远离开你在我的视线，我一定去！

还有五个月捱了它，我就会好过点了，我一定撑得下去。

这次让我看清楚你是一个怎样的人，人心丑恶。 想和你好来好去，你却一而再侮辱我，羞辱我的人格。

做一大堆小动作，你很厉害啊。

是你的动作让我看的清清楚楚，你是那么‘有礼貌’的人

张恺倪！以后带眼识人吧 =）

sweet talk with you two =D

very fast only ma, few months, aiyor ..

had a nice dinner with beloved friend
a friend that really took his and her time talking with you .

hahaha , you made me felt happy =)

Wed night again. =P

bla bla bla.

最近都很矛盾了， 一心一意要改变的事情叻，但是我发觉到很难下。
相处是我的问题，我蛮难相处吧，应该是。
不然连自己的男朋友都少之有少的谈天，虽然我们几乎天天见面。

今天，起码比以前多了几句话。 太无聊所以算算，哈哈哈
明天放学后，他也应该会对我不理会吧，就算我站在他隔壁，他都会走掉，丢我一个，每次这就是他给我在学校的感觉。
我在他心里还存在吗？ 还重要吗？

突然想起一句 ： 如果你把问题当做一道墙，你就很难征服它，如果你把它当作一张薄薄的纸，就轻而易举。

其实我这四天都告诉自己，

无论在学校不开心， 跟人说话他们当我透明， 超无聊但是没人理会， 心有多想你多理会议一下我（你开心就够了）
这一切一切都回过，无论当时你是开心或不如意，它都回过去。 不必要为过去费神了，

不必要为过去费神了，带着希望走下去。 迟早一天，一定如愿以偿 =）

Nightmare -.-

omggg, i cant even sleep yesterday night , keep 发恶梦。
整晚无法安宁睡觉。
还是在烦恼同样的事咯。
梦到我超怕，还冒汗 ishh.

昨天和好友陈佩心一直说心事， 原来我们俩都不好过。

其实无论怎样，认识久了还是比较信任对方。

昨天我一直跟自己讲，没事的。想多而已，但是很不安。

其实我更害怕等下他约我，所要说的。

很难接受， 真的会伤得不得了吧。

我不知道。

希望上天真的真的保佑我。 我从来没遇过我真的全心全意爱的人，这次求求你保佑我

12 of July

Today, i felt sad . Because i had a feeling that's prove me . my love one had not love me .
i really scare people left me along ,and just put me aside .
lasttime , we would very happy together no matter shopping , watching movie.
today, he just walked away from me . From his action i felt he didnt want to talk to me . Just what his action show me . Why? i dont know.
Can remain back like lasttime? i hope to talk to you more as i can . but i m just transparent in front of everyone. Am i?
i hope people to care me , to talk to me more, to protect me when i need help also
i really not that strong !

Sem break trip ,

when temple , the firsttime i cry in front of it . To sincerly pray, wished you and me can love both happily .

i really put alot of hope and effort on it.

Yes ,he did say break with me . That's feelings just broke my heart so hurt so pain .that since when i born ,the most hurt feel i had.
i cant even sleep well when you didnt care me .

seriously , Can you talk to me more , i m really depress . Can you tell me more about your feelings? i not talkative , talk me more can you, i please you.

i m not pretty , not slim , no talent ,not rich, emotional ,i m just a very ordinary girl, Sorry .
you deserve better than me .You are such a nice guy .


Sem 1 result . really bad . Parents paid alot of money but my result...
Sem 2 , no matter how . i really put all my effort to score well .

When i feeling bad, looking at facebook . but i cant even find one to talk to.
just now you online , i scare to talk to you . i scare you have nothing to talk to me . no people really understand how i feel . i should not be like this but, my feelings lead me . Cant i just be happy? its so hard and alot of troubles happen arround.

i just read a book chapter 1"chicken soup " it give me alot motivation and good thinking . But when comes to real , i also hope you will be mine , just it .i love you.

心情

我很心痛啊啊， 明明很爱很爱你，但是我做不到啊 我知道哭没有用啊，我不懂可以做什么啊， 当我认真的时候，为什么都要这样对我， 报应？ 应该是吧 说真的，我爱你胜过我自己。 可能你会觉得很假 这几天，我都睡不着。心想为什么，为什么？ 你都不理会我？ 我做错了吗？ 还是你不想再理我了。 我都在想好的方面，没什么的，很忙而已。 但是我没有勇气去指导真相啊。 我很怕啊， 我怕就这样失去一个这些年来最爱的人。 爱情真的这样难吗？